Mom, mother, best friend, hero, my idol:

First and foremost, Happy birthday momma. Let me start by saying you are the strongest woman I have ever met. From battling cancer, to every other hardship you’ve had in your life, not once did you let it shoot you down. You always put your children first. You love your family like no other. You care deeper than anyone. I love you with all my heart. Without you, I could never be where I am in life (literally). You have been the woman I look up to in all my 20 years of life. You have been my biggest idol. Every positive adjective there is to describe someone, fits a description of you. You have taught me to be strong, compassionate, caring, loving, and so much more. Mom, I want to say:

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for everything you do for me and those around you. You do not receive enough credit for all that you do. You are the most incredible mother, wife, daughter, friend, sister, and inspiration. You always put others before you. You care for everyone else around you more than yourself. No matter who it may be, whether it is friends, family, your job, even random people who could need help. Your heart is so massive I dream of being like you as I age. Without you, our family would be ruined. You are the backbone, the rock that holds us down. You take care of me, dad, Narek, Kost, grandpa, and everyone else who steps foot into our home or lives. You make sure you always support us and you always make sure everyone is doing well. You make several meals a day for us all, you tore yourself in pieces for years when Kost and I didn’t drive. You took 3 children to school and to all their after school activities, and you still made time to go to work, to clean and cook, to take care of us all. Thank you for all the times I make you wake up at 5 am just to wake me up for school. Thank you for staying awake every time any of us are out late, just to make sure we get home safely. I thank you from the bottom of my feet to the top of my head for this and so much more that you do for each of us. I love you and don’t deserve you at times. Without you, I am nothing. You deserve the entire world momma.

I love you forever.

I love you for who you are. I love you for giving my brothers and I life. I love you for loving me unconditionally. I love you for putting us first and giving up so much for us. I love you for being my mom, my inspiration in life, my biggest role model, my best friend. You are my backbone, my strength, my biggest supporter in everything I have ever done. You are always there for me when I need to cry, you always find a way to make me laugh. You bring me up when I am at my lowest times. And you keep me at my highest. When everything is going wrong, I know you can make it right. You are under appreciated by me and others around you. I have never loved like I love you. I have never been so afraid to lose someone. I am blessed to have you as my mother. I am blessed to have someone like you in my life. I dream of being like you as I get older. I know I will never compare to how amazing you are, but hopefully I can one day come close.

You deserve so much greater than I have given you. You have given me so much in life that I do not know how I will ever be able to thank you. All I can say as of now is: Thank you for everything, I love you forever, And happy birthday mommy.

Love you with all my heart,

Your not so little girl ❤

Mommas little girl💓

The Loss of Friends

Friendship is something so dear and close to my heart. I have few friends whom I keep close and cherish with all my heart. I do not make friends with people easily, especially deep friendships. Friendships for me are not simple and surface level. Friendships are deep, caring, filled with love and emotion. But sometimes, the close friends you make do not always last. No matter what the scenario, losing a friend is never easy.

I put so much care and feeling into my friendships that losing them is like losing a piece of me. When I get close with someone and let them in, it is difficult for me to accept losing them. I came into 2020 losing a few friends I truly cared for and loved. The care and love are still there but the loss was so painful. I know it seems so minimal and something so small, but when you put so much effort and love into a friendship, the loss is so much harder. It feels like losing family or yourself. It hurts deeper than a lot of other pain you could feel. Walking past a friend and not even acknowledging each others existence? Automatic heart break. Someone you shared with, trusted, loved like family, acting as if you do not exist? Pain. Hurt. Sad. Tears. Those are the emotions and results of it. At the end of the day there is not much you could possibly change. You cannot force people to be in your life or to cherish friendships as much as you do. You cannot be friends with everyone forever.

People leave. That’s life and there is not much you can do to change it. That is something I have learned to accept the hard way. Through tears, pain, sadness, I have come to the conclusion that those around me are the ones I should focus on. I have such incredible friends around me. Friends who love me and cherish me like no other. Friends who care for me and appreciate me as I do them. These friends have been the ones who have helped me focus on the positive and happy moments. They have helped make my days happy and memorable. They show me endless love and support through anything that I’ve had to experience. These are the friends I need. I have come to the understanding that I cannot be chasing old friendships or dwelling in the past. I need to focus on bettering myself and the friendships I have. I need to focus on the life I am currently living.

Although the friends I have lost will forever mean the world to me, I have accepted that people come and go. I will always want the best for them and will love them endlessly. But I need to focus on myself and the incredible people I have in my life currently.
“Jesus replied, ‘You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will'” John 13:7

xoxo Agab

My lovely best friends

About Me

Hi everyone! I have been wanting to create a blog for a very long time but never got around to it. I love writing and journaling and I have decided to make my thoughts, emotions, life, etc. more public. I believe I have a story to share and I believe people can relate with others more than they think. I want to be able to write about my lifestyle, beauty, my journey through Christianity, and so much more. I believe I am a creative and emotional person and through a blog I believe I can bring the best of both worlds to the internet! I cannot wait for you all to see what I have coming and hopefully you enjoy the content published!

xoxo, Agab